all this time you had had it in you

my home town, Førde.

i am back in my soft bed. its 4 am and the jet-lag is fucking with me. it is 10 degrees outside and chilly. the water pressure is excellent and warm. people walk faster than me for a change; rushing along to wherever they are going. they are punctual, productive and proud. i am definitely back in Norway. a reunion to meet up with old friends must be carefully planned, everyones schedules are complicated and it is nearly impossible to gather everyone at the same time. my parents sit in their beautiful white sofa, sipping Italian Chianti wine, asking me to try it, as if I would taste the difference. while is was away, they got a 52" LCD screen, a new Volvo and refrigerator.

it is good to be back, although i do feel the need for gradual adjustment from being used to be just me, to being social and around people. meanwhile, its in the middle of the night and i woke up to start the day. pinche jet-lag.

i start working Monday. then i work for two weeks, and then i have most of JulY free to do whatever i wish. i want to go to bergen and visit (someone told me you got married? i guess you failed to mention that during those 6 months you got me loud) in august my eldest cousin is getting married on an northern island. it will be a lot of fun, although i am not particularly looking forward to face my judgmental auntie who apparently find my blog disturbing and scary material. well, news flash - dont read my fucking blog then, and dont go around bitching about it to my already concerned mother. youre not all that "glossy colored prints yourselves, and you know it. but love you unconditionally. and i know they love me too, i just dont always love myself.

i know it has only been one day, but i have been thinking of trips i want to do in the future.... how cool would it be to go from Mexico and down south all the way to Panama...! perhaps in December-January, after my second exchange semester is complete. i also want to see Argentina. and how about living in Ireland for a while? perhaps working? find me self an Irish man? their accent is undeniably hot and it makes my blush immediately. so little time, so much to do. Henrik, my big bro, is going down under for a semester or two in 3 weeks. that i envy him, Australia has always been a dream of mine (but you cant do it all, can u), but i also think its something he has deserved.