im okay (i swear)

- as long as i am drunk and have friends around me.

i sung at a karaokee bar tonight, sober(ish). dimelo by enrique iglesias. turnes out the song has alot of other words than the just ref. i dare say it was an emberassing experience, but nontheless im proud of myself for doing something i was uncomfortable with doing.

now, i will go to sleep now for a long time.

lourdes says i have to stop judging myself for stuff in the past that i wasnt to blame for. i think she's right, i just dont know how to change what i feel abt my past, u know?

ps. why are u not telling me everyhing. what are u waiting for. are you scared. in that case, you are right.